Lucky's memorial service

[At Laura's. Nikolas arrives. Leslie and Amy are there, too. Laura and Lulu come down the stairs.]

Nikolas: [To Lulu] "How you doing?"

Laura: "Hi."

Lulu: "Hi."

Nikolas: "Hi" [To Lulu] "You look prettier than anyone, you know that?" [He kisses her cheek.]

Laura: [To Lulu] "Honey, do you remember where you left your hat?"

Amy: [Hugging Leslie] "I think I saw it in the kitchen."

Suzanne: [To Lulu] "Oh, let's go see." [She takes Lulu's hand.] "Come on."

Laura: "Thanks, Suzanne." [To Nikolas.] "She doesn't understand that he's gone. She just can't comprehend."

Nikolas: "Can anyone? I don't."

[Laura and Nikolas hold each other. Leslie moves to them and takes Laura's hand.]

Laura: "Oh, God."



[At the memorial service. Elizabeth is inside the church. Laura walks in. Elizabeth walks up to her and they hug.]

Laura: "Thank you for loving my son."



[Outside of the church. Luke and Bobbie arrive. Bobbie walks up to Laura and hugs her.]

Laura: "I think I understand now how you felt when you lost B.J. but I don't understand how you can ever be whole again."

Bobbie: "I'm not whole, but I'm still standing. And you will be, too."



[Luke walks up to Laura and holds out his arms. They hug. They look at each other for a few moments, then Luke goes inside the church. Laura looks at Nikolas.]



[Laura and Nikolas go inside the church. Elizabeth walks up to them.]

Elizabeth: "Guess it's time?"

Laura: "Yes. Elizabeth, I'd like it very much if you sat with the family."

Elizabeth: [Softly] "Thank you."

Laura: "Thank you. Come."

[Laura, Nikolas, and Elizabeth sit down together, next to Leslie and Lulu.]



Laura: "Good afternoon. I thank you all for coming here today. My heart is broken. But my heart is also full. Full because I am surrounded by the people that I love and the people who loved my son. We think that our children belong to us, but the truth is children belong to God. Their souls are given into our care for a time -- a precious time -- and it's a blessing. Every day, every moment we have to love our children is a great gift and a great blessing. My son Lucky was God's great gift to me, just as my other two children are." [She looks at her children; Nikolas returns her sad smile.] "I would like to encourage you all not to waste a moment of time with the people that you love. Thank you."

[Laura sits down. Elizabeth walks up to speak.]

Elizabeth: "Hi. Laura asked if I wanted to say anything, and I do -- if I can just figure out how. I feel so lucky to be the girl he loved. I guess what I wanted to tell you was Lucky saved my life. If you know me, you know I'm not exaggerating or trying to sound poetic. He literally picked me up off the ground, from the snow and the ice, and took care of what hurt and watched over me at night. He took all my anger and my bitterness and turned it into something shining that I will always, always have. And this is why it's not right that he's gone. Someone who--who saves a life should have an extra life. More time, not less."

[Elizabeth sits down. Luke walks up to speak.]

Luke: "Thank you, Elizabeth. They say, them that says things, that the child is the father of the man. I heard that all my life and I never paid much attention to it until Lucky became a teenager. No, actually, you know, the truth is he never was a teenager. He went right into adulthood. It happened in one day. If there were any warnings, I didn't see them coming. But just because it was fast, it doesn't mean it was smooth. It was painful. It was so painful for him. And it was the hardest thing I've ever done -- letting my boy be a man at the same moment that my child was telling me that he hated me. And believe me, I wouldn't have done it if I had known then that I was going to miss so much time with the son who was here so briefly. But at the end of the day, he was a Spencer. And, uh, we Spencers, we're connected. I am grateful. I am so grateful for my connection to Lucky. He taught me a lot. He taught me about things that I couldn't see and I only half believed in half the time--things like honor and truth and love. It would not have been my choice that my adulthood would come at the price of his." [He sits down.]

Got a picture of you
I carry in my heart
Close my eyes to see it
When the world gets dark
Got a memory of you
I carry in my soul
I wrap it close around me
When the nights get cold
If you asked me how I'm doin'
I'd say just fine
But the truth is baby
If you could read my mind
Not a day goes by
That I don't think of you
After all this time
You're still with me it's true
Somehow you remain locked so deep inside
Baby, baby, oh baby
Not a day goes by
I don't think of you

Not A Day Goes By (Lonestar)